//...the gloomy night of life...\\

Friday, 30 May 2008

The ghost of a horrible past have come back to hunt me... I don't want it to... But it did... I've tried to put it behind me... but it just keeps coming back...
How I'm losing this battle with this ghost... I'm fighting... but I'm losing... How I wish I could give a morale-boosting speech to my army... to fight on... what's the use? I'm still losing isn't it? Give up... surrender...
No................ I can't....................... I must persevere.... I can't give up like that... seriously... go away you stupid ghost... leave me alone...

Hexi ~ 19:40

Wednesday, 28 May 2008

Freaking school!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Instead of 4 weeks... I only have like 1 week of holidays!!!! fgnPgiwejpf"FKa"DFjc'DS'a!!!! AAAARRRRRGGGHHHH!!!!!!!!

Had science camp these two days... 8.30-5pm... that's sooo freaking crazy... for 2 days... I'm not mentally prepared for what's after that....

Hexi ~ 21:14

Monday, 26 May 2008

Brother went for OBS today... worrying for him for the whole day... Since my chinese exam... I hope he can take it in there... *sigh*... This OBS could probably let him learn some stuff... But I really really worry for him... Gosh...
Something seems to have bothered him as well... He went up to our room suddenly... heard him sobbing though...

Hexi ~ 20:04

Sunday, 25 May 2008

Seeing my brother writing on Vivian's birthday book reminded me on so many things... Reminded me on people who left, for one reason or another... Things are so different now... We are getting smaller... The year I came in... 2003... There were still many of us here... But one by one... they left... They probably went to another church due to their own personal reason... No problemo... At least they still go to church... But those that left God... I worry...

It seems like our job dosen't end when we lead a seeker to God... it is only the beginning...

Hexi ~ 08:12

Thursday, 22 May 2008

Haha... You guys must have heard already... Yup... Manchester United won the Champions League!! A fantastic double... haha...

*sigh* Chinese exams starts on Monday... Gotta prepare now!!

Photo source: soccernet.com

Hexi ~ 22:21

Sunday, 18 May 2008

Real touching true life story... revolves around an American football team... Who had just survived the shock of having members of the team, coaches and fans killed in a plane crush... The remaining members pleaded with the school to hire another coach and built up a new team... The story went on about the rebuilding and the difficulty they faced... including recruiting new players...

Although they've managed to solve the membership problem, they faced another... about the experience of the new team... because they had to resort to getting freshmen... you know... new students of the school...

*sigh* Lot's of things to learn here... and that the most obvious one is to be able to pick oneself up after a very, very big fall... which I sometimes am not be able to do... sometimes... I question God's authority to put me into that situation and why is He not helping me... But I found a verse while seaching for another to send to CCH...

"Blessed is the man who perseveres under trail, because when he has stood the test, he will recieve the crown of life that God has promised to those who love Him." James 1:12.

Hexi ~ 23:03

Thursday, 15 May 2008

Watched Iron Man for the 2nd time with Wei en they all... All I can say is, it's wonderful!!! Another Marvel hero coming on the big screen... had been watching the cartoons and reading the comics... could finally watch it...I gotta say... Iron man's one of many marvel chracter I liked since young... Another would be spiderman and X-men...can't wait for the sequel... haha... Had a great chat with Wei Hong about studying skills... thanks man...

Hexi ~ 22:54

Tuesday, 13 May 2008

Who am I? That the Lord of all the earth, Would care to know my name, Would care to feel my hurt. Who am I? That the bright and morning star, Would choose to light the way, For my ever wandering heart.

Bridge:Not because of who I am, But because of what you've done. Not because of what I've done, But because of who you are.

Chorus:I am a flower quickly fading, Here today and gone tomorrow, A wave tossed in the ocean, A vapor in the wind. Still you hear me when I'm calling, Lord, you catch me when I'm falling, And you've told me who I am. I am yours.I am yours.

Who am I? That the eyes that see my sin Would look on me with love And watch me rise again. Who am I? That the voice that calmed the sea, Would call out through the rain, And calm the storm in me.

Not because of who I am, But because of what you've done. Not because of what I've done, But because of who you are.

I am a flower quickly fading, Here today and gone tomorrow, A wave tossed in the ocean, A vapor in the wind. Still you hear me when I'm calling,Lord, you catch me when I'm falling, And you've told me who I am. I am yours.

Not because of who I am, But because of what you've done. Not because of what I've done, But because of who you are.

I am a flower quickly fading, Here today and gone tomorrow, A wave tossed in the ocean, A vapor in the wind. Still you hear me when I'm calling, Lord, you catch me when I'm falling, And you've told me who I am. I am yours.I am yours.

I am yours.

Whom shall I fear? Whom shall I fear? 'Cause I am yours.I am yours.

Hexi ~ 19:40

Monday, 12 May 2008

Haha... Man Utd are champions!!!! haha... yay!! that had brought and end to an exciting season finally... One more match to go and that's the champion league final... haha...

Photo source: soccernet.com

Hexi ~ 18:43

Sunday, 11 May 2008

Premiership is drawing to a close in a few hours time... am sooooooooo nervous and excited about it... yay... good news or bad? I gotta say I don't know... but hopefully it'll be good... it's a relieve that the season is gonna end... but it's I do feel a little sad... cause like I said... it's one of the most exciting season I've ever seen... premiership crown is decided on the very last day, last match... relegation battle is also decided on the last day of the season... wow...

This season have been the season of the underdogs as well... 2 cups have been won by teams that well, not so good... League cup had been won by Tottenham hotspurs, and the FA cup final has not been played yet but still... both teams that are going to play were teams that have not even won it for about 50 years, or more... I'm not kidding... soccer started waaaaaaaaaaay before I was born... besides... FA cup has the longest histoy ever... stretches to over a hundred years...

Anyway... Happy Mothers Day to all mothers!!

Hexi ~ 20:39

Friday, 9 May 2008

well... finally, exams have ended... watched Iron man with classmates after school...

what the hell... heard Vice-principal wants to see me on monday... seems like it's about my art work... I mean like... what? I have already did all my work during art period... I stayed back when Mr Ang told us too... Like what the heck do I still need to see the VP for? What the heck is Mr Ang doing? Reporting me to the VP? I don't even know what the hell is going through his head... seriously... I did all my work HELLO!!!!! okay... I admit my drawing and artwork isn't that good... But I'm trying to improve here and you're not helping!! You even said so yourself I'm hardworking already... THEN WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING????!!!!

Seriously... that had spoilt my image as a christian as well... a classmate even told me he was shocked he heard my name being called... yes... they called my name in the hall... in front of everyone... really... the nerve...

Hexi ~ 19:03

Wednesday, 7 May 2008

Real pissed off by their service... really... what non-artist-approved-songs? wanted to put up one in here... cause of this thing that they have... which do not put up full songs unless the artist approves it... means I would only have 30 secs of the song... out of all my songs uploaded, only 3 are approved... One of them is of course the song you'll be hearing now...

anyway... something funny I came across Wai yee's blog...

Hexi ~ 22:31

Tuesday, 6 May 2008

Seems like the closer you get to your target... the more impatient you'll get... and wrong ideas will get to your head just to make it happen or as soon as you want it to happen...

Hexi ~ 22:02

Monday, 5 May 2008

Girls and non-soccer fans may skip this post if they want to... haha... an exciting end to the season perhaps? It all depends on the game tonight (tomorrow morning, Singapore time). Newcastle VS Chelsea... Chelsea loses, and the title goes to Manchester United... Chelsea wins, and it all depends on the last game of the season... This coming Sunday... One of the most exciting season I've ever watched... At the beginning... Arsenal had led the pack... with Man Utd chasing closely behind, and unbelieveable thing was... Man Utd had been losing matches that they should not have lost at the start... And had been winning their matches by only one goals... Now... Man Utd have a better goal difference(Man Utd has 3 more points, but Chelsea has a game in hand... Man u's 3 points will be gone if they win tonight's game) than Chelsea and the title could be decided by goal difference if Chelsea wins tonight (but I hope not)... besides... Arsenal had been leading for almost more than half the season, but had crumbles at the last few stages of the league... Besides chasing after the league title...

Both Man Utd and Chelsea are playing for the Champions league trophy as well... haha... non-soccer fans sorry if you don't understand...

Hexi ~ 10:36