//...the gloomy night of life...\\

Thursday, 31 January 2008

A glimmer of hope... As I see you... picking up... or are you? I see your fighting spirit... But are you fighting? Perhaps more time should be given to you...and it will be...I really do hope you get better...

As we draw nearer to the year end... When I'll be taking my ever-so-important examinations..., I begin to wonder is this it? Few years of my studies and is this it? Well... things have to come to an end... people move... and so will I...

I really should thank the Lord for guiding me through these difficult few years... peppering me with lessons and of course... giving me a big trial for me to go through...

THANK YOU!!!!!

Hexi ~ 21:54

Tuesday, 29 January 2008

Life seems hard... but we still have to go through it.... We overcome difficulties... Mostly... with the help of God... But how shall one day... We have to do all things by ourselves? No support from anyone.... no nothing...

I'm soooooooo grateful to be in this band of bro's and sis... and of course... God...

Hexi ~ 23:06

Sunday, 27 January 2008

Well... had such wonderful experience today... At church selling things is not easy!! :D... *sigh* I should be studying now... but I'm just too tired...

But I'm still worried though... About you... Wish you would make a wise decision... remember what I said...

Watched X-men 2... It's sad how someone or some race, would be seemed as "unfit" to live with... Just because they are a little different.... but in this case... the difference is a lot... But if we were to apply it to real life... I would just wish this will not exist... that everyone will treat each other as equals...

Hexi ~ 21:41

Saturday, 26 January 2008

well... got a new blogskin finally... haha... needed to change lots of things...sigh... oh well... sigh... why am I sighing so much... I should be Happy!!! haha... oh well... nothing lots to say... got to go!!

Hexi ~ 16:08

Friday, 25 January 2008

To a dear friend out there... I know now, that you hate everything that has happened to you... That you hated God because God has planted this path for you... It was planned, my friend... planned... God has put you in this path for a purpose... it's only a matter of time when that purpose is revealed, when you would understand why the Lord put you here... Be patient... and answers will come... I know now you have trouble understanding and knowing why... I had trouble accepting my results when I repeated... But I still accepted in the end... Please... Accept it... Accept your fate... If not, how are you going to face future failures as well? Is your faith going to crumble just like it did yesterday? I hope you do understand...

Hexi ~ 15:02

Thursday, 24 January 2008

O level results came out today... saw 2 different kinds of emotions today... Happiness and sadness... I wonder which will I feel when I get my O level results next year... I asked those that had repeated their 4Ns... how much did they get... Not so much... Now I'm very worried... very...

Hexi ~ 16:40

Tuesday, 22 January 2008

I read through the pure physics and pure chem textbooks... Man they were so hard... now my dream of going into engineering is dashed... DASHED!!!!! stupid education system... why can't they allow us to study pure science in Normal (academic)?? RAHHHH!!! If I can't take engine in poly... maybe I shall think psycology.... hahahahahahaha... or maybe a nurse... :D... oh well... now to tackle my tagboard...

*prepares insect repellant*...

Hexi ~ 17:30

Saturday, 19 January 2008

Are friends just like passing rain? to come and go as life passes on? Now I'm witnessing a breaking friendship... why can't it last forever? How fragile it is... something I wish could be as hard as stone... But even so... stones don't last...whether we want it or not... It's saddening to see how one's life crumble just because of a lost friendship... I hope to see both of you back together again...

Hexi ~ 23:39

Thursday, 17 January 2008

can't put up any more music as something's wrong I think... haha... profile's pic: me and my bro... I know, my bro's cute... but so am I!!! hahahaha... anyway... hope I can keep to my resolution... arrgghh... can't seem to stick to it...

saw a dead young lizard on the floor... makes me think of how short life can be... you can just go anytime... so treasure everyday guys!!

Hexi ~ 22:31

Tuesday, 15 January 2008

okay okay... I know I'm only 18... and I'm still not as old as most of you... haha...

My father was scanning mine and my bro's baby photos and photos when we were really small... into the com... deciding to burn it into a disk...

I teared when looking at them... thinking that we cannot go back to the innocent past anymore... I must now take responsibility for my actions...and of course... I know that we can never go back to the past anymore... We(those that I had grown up together with) had so much fun in the past... going overseas together, doing so many things together...those memories... *sigh*... I can't stop tearing... actually... I'm crying...

thanks Mum and Dad!!

Hexi ~ 21:23

Friday, 11 January 2008

Well... went to watch National treasure with Joseph after school... Quite nice actually... haha... Nick cage!! Then went to have Ramen with Wai yee... talked about stuff and had our sharing... haha... shared about my feelings for Os... argghh.... anyway...
not much stuff today...

oh... thanks Kai en... for your belated Birthday wish!!!

Hexi ~ 21:15

Thursday, 10 January 2008

Well... I've finally turned 18 today... thanks guys... for the birthday wishes... haha... went to Nyp in the afternoon for their open house and saw Mei foong and Chen huan... man... I'm now super pooped out... the fatigue of old age has finally overwelmed me... My gosh... I'm only 18!! Why am I tired already?

k... many peeps to thank...

Heng Wei
Pei fen
Xiaoling
Rena
Waiyee
Chen huan
and 5N1!! haha...

Hexi ~ 23:18

Wednesday, 9 January 2008

Our circle of friends... is thinning... Do I care? yes... a lot... I do get worried when people starts leaving us like that... where do they go? maybe to somewhere else cause they have some problems here? perhaps....at least they have somewhere to go to... what if it's not?what if they just leave without reason? and to nowhere else? then I'm more worried about them than anything else...

The Os has already gone to my head and it's only the beginning of the year... Oh no... Concentrate!!!

Hexi ~ 15:16

Tuesday, 8 January 2008

It's rather fast... turning 18 in about 2 days time? wow... that's very quick... 5 years ago... I just turned into a teen... now... I'm almost out of my teenage years already... my... I'm old... *sigh* going into army soon... Got my chance to serve the country and protect you guys in it... haha... well... I wonder how it go... cheers!!

Hexi ~ 22:46

Sunday, 6 January 2008

How do we get rid of things that irritates us? or our problems?

Are we like the bull that tries to get to the red cloth? That whenever we see something that irritates us... we react with anger? Or do we react just like a hair in the mouth? remove something that makes us uncomfortable and that's that? Or are we that clamp? Let something irritate us but we just continue letting it making us uncomfortable till a priceless pearl appears?

So which one of it shall we be like? The bull? Or the hair in the mouth? Or the clamp?

Anger is a terrible thing friends... a terrible thing... stupid things could happen... So why don't we be like the clamp? Instead of reacting with anger like the bull.... Use it to your advantage instead(the clamp)... and maybe... things could just go your away....

and to a dear bro-in-christ out there... I don't know what has happened... But I do hope you escape from this emotional trap of yours... I'll be praying for you...

Hexi ~ 16:01

Friday, 4 January 2008

Is it my turn to feel emotional now? I don't know why... It seems like after reading one of the blog post from someone's blog... Sadness seemed to have taken me... It finally made me know why someone left.... Left us... Left this circle of friends...

Finally... I wish to say I'm sorry to my bro... for whatever I've done... I know I'm not always kind to you... will you accept it?

There... I've said it all...

Hexi ~ 17:41

First 3 days of school was quite all right... Homework was already given yesterday... the 2nd day of school... Well... what can I expect? This is my O level year... Thinking back.... I was still sadded by the fact that I'm doing my Os 2 years later instead of the usual date... Well... Waiyee's SMS of encouragement came just in time... came just at the right moment... Thank you Waiyee!!

*sigh* so much work to do!!

Hexi ~ 14:18

Tuesday, 1 January 2008

Well... Happy New Year everyone!!! Had fun with bros and sis-in-christ yesterday at Heng wei's condo... Haha... played some games created by Yanheng... Had some sharing with them and sang songs... It's super funny.... cause while we were sharing half-way... The others were afraid they'll miss the countdown... haha... So suddenly... we could here fireworks and went to take a look... The last fireworks I saw was the National day's fireworks when we watched it on pop's office.... The National Day then was held at the padang... and pop's office is at the OCBC building... haha... well... Happy New Year again... 2007 was a great year... Hope 2008 will be as great as 2007...

New Year's resolution...

I must study harder for my Os...
I must ask, when in doubt...
I must forget the past, to live the present, and plan the future...

Hexi ~ 18:17